How to Know in a World of Believers

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“He who has known himself has already achieved knowledge about the depth of all.” ~The Book of Thomas the Contender

When we are born, we become an immediate recipient of external projection. We are either coddled with hope or greeted with disdain, expected to live up to expectations, or guided to repeat failures. Not only are we told how to act, but how to think, and from the very start what to believe. If we are fortunate, we are reminded to nurture our own minds and trust our innate intelligence, but more commonly we are taught how to avoid embarrassment. This is highly subjective of course, as our caretakers range from domesticated well-doers to heartless materialists, and on the bleaker end of the spectrum institutionalized systems or the cold chokehold of the streets. 

This crash course to existing creates a diverse landscape of beliefs. In ignorance, most of the world goes on to confuse their beliefs with truth, but beliefs by definition are opinions. What is also unfortunate is that people label facts as truth, when facts are merely statistics or records that are subject to persuasion, the either purposeful, or inadvertent exclusion or modification of relevant information, or are lost in translation – what can be equated to “broken telephone.” Due to the aforementioned, people become confused, and when confusion is present, it always opens the door for deception. 

The only way to protect ourselves from the Trojan Horse of belief is to opt for wisdom. When we abandon wisdom in exchange for belief, we are rejected in return to greet our detriment alone, the very thing we were avoiding. It is indeed a paradox that by creating meaning around figments of the imagination to have something to believe in, we continue to feel isolated even when surrounded by believers in common. Yet and still, we remain paralyzed by the false assumption that the voyage to seek the truth will be a much lonelier place for us and so we opt for inaction as it is more palatable than to endure the shame of failing at finding ourselves while at the same time losing everyone else. 

The truth is that the path to knowing and wisdom is difficult and often tormenting. You will be put to the test for certain, but just like an orphan goes on a mission to find their biological birth parent unsure of the reception, so you must go on the mission to reunite with yourself. It is true wisdom comes at a great price, yet once you join the dues remain free. For this reason, anyone that has experienced wisdom has a duty to speak until those that believe also come to know:

Knowing vs. Believing

  1. Don’t believe anyone, ever. Know them. – People show you who they are, that is if you take the time to observe and get to know them without projecting your hopes, desires, or motives in place of the reality of what is. When you know someone, you know what they are capable of good or bad, and you are not susceptible to living in delusion or denial. If you don’t take the time or energy to really get to know someone, you will be forced to believe them, which means they are already controlling your experience. If you ignore what you come to know in exchange for belief, looking for further proof, you are doing so at your own demise. 
  1. Know a person’s character rather than believing a narrative (either yours or theirs), and you will never be in disbelief. – Often people say, “I just can’t believe they did that!” This is quite mystifying because it didn’t take any evidence to easily believe the converse. Rather than believing, it is to our benefit to see things coming. The better we are at anticipating the actions of those around us or within our environment, the more readily able we are to positively impact the world. If we allow ourselves to be at the whim of what we believe, we are susceptible to constant setbacks or being caught off guard by others, unable to focus our energy to create and build things with meaning.
  1. Don’t believe facts because someone told you they are true. – Anyone that has worked in science or marketing for that matter, knows that data can be manipulated to achieve the desired outcome. This can be based on sample size, demographics, and a plethora of other criteria. Besides the point but relevant, one day I saw an athletic brand doing a Frontal Attack (Marketing term) on a competitor via an Instagram ad. I often read comments for the wealth of comedy and random information and happened upon a woman talking about how unkind the ad was, unnecessarily offended. But someone that had studied marketing could identify that they were leveraging a textbook strategy; therefore, not emotionally influenced. The same can be said for deciphering information on any media platform. if you are a learned Botanist and nightly news gives false information out to their viewership about plants, you will know immediately that what you heard was not true, but a statistically significant portion of the viewership will believe it because they do not know what you know. This applies to our personal relationships just the same. We can want to believe in something so easily that we fail to see what others know. Study strategy, study how you are susceptible to manipulation, and most of all ask in which ways you are looking to delude yourself by ignoring your intelligence.  
  1. Ask yourself often, “Am I being basic?” – Per Urban Dictionary, to anchor the nuance with today’s times, being basic is characterized as someone who is a total follower; a person that cannot make their own decisions or think for themselves. If you only believe information or knowledge that comes along with a logo, a false persona (reputation), or follower base, you are more than likely, basic. The same goes for believing everything you were taught in school or church I am afraid. Believers (followers) don’t seek the truth because they don’t have faith. They doubt their sovereignty and the ability to be fearless. They live under the thumb of bogeymen and die there too, contrary to what they would have others believe. Basic people are also often distracted and entertained by external stimuli, failing to distinguish themselves from the show they are entranced by. The Roman Empire was infamous for their blood sport and theatre which were a way to keep citizens and communities distracted (entertained), persuaded into autocracy through fear by suggestion and adrenaline addiction. Entertainment is a synonym for diversion.
  1. Blind trust is respectfully reserved for the blind, not the ignorant. – There is a popular saying that goes, “It is like the blind leading the blind,” in other words, those without sight attempting to lead others who too, cannot see, which is what happens most often when we believe. In our haste to turn a blind eye, we miss the glaringly obvious reality that the evil leading the blind is monumentally worse. Just like the frontal attack in marketing doesn’t care if it is mean, those that leverage you for their benefit don’t care if you are sad, jobless, or left destitute for that matter. Know that sociopaths infiltrate movements and places of power, even under the guise of good causes. This is a sweet spot for them and has been evident in foundational psychological research which has assessed the tendency for this trend in both historical and present society. Breadcrumbing the destitute or lost is entertainment for such characters. Sociopaths also permeate the hearts of weak believers through contrived intimacy and flattery. All we have to do is observe how it turned out for those lured in by the charm of Jeffrey Dahmer (technically a psychopath), but do remember, one doesn’t have to literally eat men to be a maneater. 
  1. The worst place to be in life is to not know what to believe and be unsure of what you know. – It is obvious that the only way to know something is to find it out. We can either decide to know what is in our capacity to know by seeking knowledge and wisdom, or we can wait for the unforgiving wrath of her abandonment to show up through hard lessons. Our personal regard is only one facet of how we interact with the pursuit of knowledge. For example, if we believe ourselves to be unworthy of love, there is no truth to be had, only created experiences that further support our belief. Another aspect of our relation to wisdom is our propensity to avoid acting on the knowledge we have gained. As Haile Selassie put it, “Throughout history, it has been the inaction of those who could have acted; the indifference of those who should have known better; the silence of the voice of justice when it mattered most; that has made it possible for evil to triumph.”
  1. Know thyself, but remember what you think you know, might just be a strong belief unbacked by any wisdom whatsoever. – How to tell the difference, let me reference the following quote, “The more you know, the more you realize you don’t know,” Aristotle infers that a) you stop believing because you grow wise to your own ignorance and b) seeking knowledge becomes a lifelong endeavor and will always lead you to seek the truth. People don’t seek the truth because when they find it, they might have to do what is difficult. They may have to admit they were wrong, naïve, they may have to change their behavior, make tough choices, change jobs, relationships, or more serious consequences that involve life or death. When you do know yourself, however, you know you aren’t at risk of believing, you know that you are never alone when wisdom walks with you.
  1. Lastly, don’t be so ignorant to believe you know it ALL. – People that know anything have the understanding that knowledge is infinite. Know what you know and focus there. Make it relevant, make it just, make it resonate with your higher self and your heart. Always keep seeking, and always stand for truth. More importantly, if you don’t know something to be true, do us all a favor and stop being the truth police. 

If the above sounded a bit harsh, let us inspect some basic language and common pretexts of believers to clarify further:

Common Phrases

  • “Benefit of the doubt.” There is doubt (I don’t believe, and I don’t know) but am still believing anyway and going to opt for giving someone a benefit for no sound reason.
  • “People change.” Yes, but they change on their own accord and then give you evidence by making serious amends and substantial long-lasting behavior modification that is not contingent on your acceptance of them. In summation, they do not change because you give them another chance to slight you through blind trust.
  • “It is better than nothing.” (Lazy) No. I think we can all agree that we have all dated somebody where nothing would have been exorbitantly better than the something that experience represented. Have some standards, aim high, and for the love of all that is holy, stop disgracing yourself now!
  • “I just don’t know what to believe!” I am sure you have heard this one. We have all been there. Don’t believe anything, seek knowledge and wisdom. Undisciplined people find wisdom’s demands too hard and don’t have the determination to meet them.
  • “I choose to see the best in people.” That is the same as saying that many different wavelengths of energy do not comprise our light spectrum because you believe it so.
  • “I believe they meant well.” You are free to believe whatever you want, but only another knows what they truly intended. The meaning you place on something to believe in it is not the same as what it means.

Thus, it turns out, to know anything, we must first quit our relationship with belief systems. Unbeknownst to most, what one chooses to believe only reveals their own lack of wisdom, it doesn’t prove another’s ignorance. Beliefs are energetic prisons that inhibit freedom from tyranny, either our own or another’s. In a dualistic world, it is not negative or pessimistic to seek understanding of what lurks in the dark, it is wise. So, seek the truth and build your constitution, but to do so you may first have to call bullsh*t on yourself. 

4 Ways to Know if Your Comfort is Really Pain

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“Growth demands a temporary surrender of security. It may mean giving up familiar but limiting patterns, safe but unrewarding work, values no longer believed in, and relationships that have lost their meaning.” — John C. Maxwell

We all have one thing in common as humans, the fact that we are here on this earth breathing and none of us know the hell why. We live on an emotional spectrum that ranges from elation to agony. Some of us work our whole lives to understanding it all, trying to reside in one feeling more than another, always proving elusive. Depending on what we find, we either work hard to extend the life experience or work hard to end it. There are others of us that find that our realities and what we really desire never align. What we long for doesn’t appear to come our way no matter how hard we seem to work for it. We read about manifesting and begin to resent the word, writing it off as new age propaganda. We aren’t yet aware that we can never attain a state of being that we long for if we don’t really believe deep down that we are worthy of it or that it can exist for us.

Life can turn us into melancholic prisoners yearning for an understanding of the undeniable “truth” that everyone speaks of: That we are all worthy of love, respect and to be treated with dignity, that we deserve to be happy and successful. Sure, the concept makes sense, but we are living in the reality of our memories, everyday relationships, jobs, and what we interpret to be options. When we keep encountering similar experiences that feel familiar, it seems to speak the contrary to what is possible for us and what is articulated to us through books, guides, leaders, and dogmas meant to help us on this journey. We then start throwing around the slogan, “that’s life.”

We settle in. Into the reality of us, our habits, shortcomings, and idiosyncrasies. At the hint of the smallest connection be it physical, emotional, spiritual, we are excited to find these elusive truths, temporarily in another. We think maybe we have finally found what we have been searching for. It is hard not to feel grateful when someone appears with hints of the answers we seek. Only the hints are a mirage. They appear to be a vision of beautiful lakes and shady palms in our desert of desire for meaning and validation. We give the truth bearer our rations and justify trading one version of hunger for another. We get angry after time passes and we realize that we are still in a desert. But all too familiar with the feeling, we navigate the temperature highs and lows. The desert is our reality and we know how to survive there. We figure a few mirages here and there are enough for us and they will help us make it through the blood, sweat, and tears. There is a faint outline of a rugged mountain range off in the distance, but we doubt we could ever make it there, and even if we did, we have no idea what is on the other side. Maybe we are just seeing another mirage. So, we stay. We stay in our designated “comfort” zone.

The curse of comfort can display itself in many ways, it doesn’t always show up in mom jeans, dad bods, bodily disease, or pay ceilings. Sometimes it shows up in being highly successful and painfully lonely. Other times it rears its’ ugly head as abusive relationship dynamics, setting ourselves up for failure, or as constant discomfort reflected in our need to control everything around us. To remain comfortable, sometimes we even continue abandoning ourselves and our needs, because taking a stand would exponentially compound the loneliness inherent in selling ourselves on our present situation.

How do we give up something that our mind deems comfortable, but something else unidentifiable screams otherwise? Deep down, this “comfort” we feel is just acceptance of the monstrous discomfort that we have never been able to heal but just cover with one band-aid or another. The painful acknowledgment of not being heard, loved, accepted, valued, respected, honored, protected, wanted, or enough. Maybe our father never valued us, now our husband doesn’t value us. Our mother didn’t respect us, so now our wife emasculates us every chance she gets. We were never loved quite right so maybe we stack up possessions and accomplishments to prove others wrong, but we can’t even manage to prove our own mind a liar. When we face the known versus the unknown with only one chip to bet, it seems like an easy choice. But we lose every time when we don’t bet on ourselves.

When trying to understand harmful behaviors, Daeyeol Lee, Yale’s Dorys McConnell Duberg Professor of Neuroscience and professor of psychology and psychiatry states, “The brain may erroneously decide it does not need to learn more, and bad habits become entrenched. Understanding the nature of neural changes associated with learning might allow us to find remedies to such maladaptive behaviors.” One thing is for certain, getting to the root of what weeds have grown in the gardens or wastelands of our lives is our responsibility. If we truly desire to experience fulfillment on a deep level, because let’s be honest, no one knows how long we have or if we are coming back, we must start with an honest inventory and identification of our pain points and our story. In looking deeper, we can see how negative emotions may be the driving force behind some of our painful comforts:

Comfort in Blame: Blame and denial are close friends. Denial is a failure to acknowledge an unacceptable truth or emotion or to admit it into consciousness, used as a defense mechanism. Blame is to assign fault or hold someone else responsible (many times for our emotions and situations), or self-blame which assigns too much responsibility to ourselves denying a situation or relationship that may be toxic. How to tell: Am I remaining in harmful patterns and justifying them with excuses (also fear)? Am I blaming myself for other’s bad behavior in order to be a prisoner to an unhappy situation? Am I blaming another individual for my lack of happiness or fulfillment? Do I lack the ability to recognize the level of availability in another, romanticizing reality (denial)? Am I rejecting my responsibility, judging others, and projecting my fears? Do I have a lack of empathy for myself and/or other’s experiences?

Comfort in Shame: Shame greatly contributes to the deterioration of self-esteem. When we feel flawed in our core we look to confirm this truth through thoughts and actions. Shame tells us what we are worthy of in this life and it disconnects us from connecting authentically with others through intimacy. It keeps us in harmful cycles that act as outlets for self-punishment. How to tell: Do I feel unlovable or that others will not accept me or where I have been? If so, do I stay in situations even if unhappy because I feel this person is the only one that will accept me? Do I invite others to reject, shame, or express anger toward me? Do I pull people toward me only to push them away (also fear)? Do I project feelings of inadequacy onto people around me? Do I shame others to get the desired result? Do I create situations or make bad decisions to reinforce feelings of shame? Do I attempt to feel superior to others so that I can avoid my own feelings of shame?

Comfort in Fear: There are certain universal truths around fear. There are also unique and individual ideas around fear customized to our personal experiences and behaviors. We can be afraid of failure, fear success, be afraid of relationships, or even fear germs. It is an emotion that motivates action or inaction in our lives. How to tell: Am I afraid to be alone? Am I attempting to conform, obey, and/or people please even if I don’t want to or agree? Am I attempting to govern, regulate, and control others? Am I attempting to suppress, withhold, or evade emotions or facts? Am I being overly critical of others that are attempting to do something I dream of doing? Am I avoiding feeling vulnerable with others? Am I perceiving many people to be threats?

Comfort in Guilt: Depending on how we were raised, we may feel guilty for not being able to be a good enough son or daughter, not being able to save our mother or father from disease, destruction, or death, or not fitting into societal norms that were unjustly assigned to us. We may now play this guilt out in many areas of our lives. How to tell: Am I acting or making choices from a place of low confidence, self-respect, or unhealthy self-esteem, not because I actually want to? Am I overlooking my needs for everyone else’s needs? Contrary to past evidence, do I believe that making changes or putting in more work will change an unhealthy and toxic relationship or situation? Do I find myself more concerned with other individuals, organizations, or group’s feelings, than my own? Am I unable to articulate my feelings or needs, and when I do, I feel bad or like apologizing? Am I overly responsible?

Now that we have identified some of the ways that we may be stuck, what are we going to do about it? In looking deeper within, we can begin to see how some of our core desires have shaped the behavior, identity, and actions that we have taken to build our lives around our unique versions of pain. In order to break free from this, we first must admit how uncomfortable we truly may be. We have to own that we cannot complain, nag, or punish a true feeling of comfort into existence. We also cannot blame others for withholding it or not giving it to us right. The most painful part is acknowledging that we may not even know what it is supposed to feel like because all we have ever known is discomfort. Only after experiencing awareness, are we able to then start working on healthy choices and behavior that may feel unfamiliar to us. If we are not self-starters, we can enlist the assistance of a confidential objective professional to help. We can then create a new framework for ourselves to follow after we have identified some of our true discomforts.

Even if we do not feel we have the understanding or courage to choose differently than we always have, we must summon the strength to try. We may slip up or take a step forward only to take two steps back, and that is ok. The process of venturing out of the desert of our past is a challenging journey, to say the least, but please find solace in the fact that our future self is standing on the mountain range enjoying the view, waiting to thank us.