Among all ailments of the human experience is the desire to place emphasis on external factors. This includes how others may help us, hurt us, or guide us. We not only seek answers to the most basic questions but also are easily influenced by the smallest external stimuli. It takes work to embrace curiosity. It takes dedication to ask yourself why you are having a particular experience, emotion, or relationship. Especially when most often these involve recurring similarities in outcome or feeling. When we look for others to provide us with answers we seek because we deny our own power to do so, we can be led down any path, even if the path is not what is good for us.
The answers we seek are within, but it is hard to know what is within with too much external stimuli. When we are constantly being fed information through television, cell phones, work environment and we are expected to stay “in the know,” we do not have the silence necessary to look within. Even meditation has been apprehended by capitalism with artificial intelligence and hypnosis. We cannot seem to sit with ourselves for even 5 minutes.
After a prolonged period of time we get further away from knowing how to tap into what is within and so begin to increasingly avoid even attempting it, because it begins to feel too hard. This is why many struggle to even spend time alone, because even starting to dive into what that means and what is going on within feels too difficult and uncomfortable. People don’t know where to start so they rush to distract themselves from this reality with misaligned relationships, inebriation, or other easy distractions; Because who they really are is what is external to them now. But once you make the commitment to choose to discard everything that you have learned you gain much.
There is a reason for fasting. Fasting from food, sex, media, and other attachments allows you to see that you are a divine incarnation with much capability and power, that you create your environment, and are not a victim of it. If you are distracted indefinitely however you will never realize it.
Chasing success at the expense of our internal world is the old paradigm. When we do that, we end up competing for a slot as a slave to someone else that has more successfully ignored their inner world. This is not to say that you can only have one or the other, but unfortunately the reality is that most are pushed in today’s culture to choose.
Choose wisely and be brave.
If you cannot sit in silence for one minute, then sit there for ten. Show up everyday until you can. Or you can live a life of excuses, it is your life after all. Or is it?